Feeling…sorry for myself? 

It’s been weeks, maybe even months since I posted anything here.  I’m back at work. Back at work and loving being busy; surrounded by the most loving, genuine, caring colleagues a girl could ask for. I have an INCREDIBLE family. AMAZING friends. A very, VERY ‘cushty’ life. So why am I so damn miserable?! I…

Nighttime is the worst

The day has settled down. You’re back in your bedroom, alone, with all the time in the world to think. Think about every single problem you think you have, think about everything you’re worried about, think about everything you’re sad about, think about everything you doubt about yourself and think about how LONELY you are. …

Feeling LOW

I’m having a bad day today. Thought I would try and write about it. Don’t really know what to say. I want to talk about it but I just can’t be bothered. Can’t be bothered trying to put it into words. I wish someone could just reach into my mind and pull out my thoughts…

Feeling ANTISOCIAL

Blinds closed. TV on mute in the background. No make-up. No bra. No f**ks given. Best of all, NO HUMAN BEINGS! If this were a regular occurrence, I’d be worried. I promise you it’s not. But after a full week of human interaction, I would really appreciate spending the day being one thousand percent alone….

Feeling HEARTBROKEN

I heard some bad news this week about somebody I know. I was told by a friend. I haven’t been able to stop thinking about it. My chest is tight & I feel sick to my stomach. I am gutted for them & for their family. I keep going over it in my mind. What…

Feeling CONTENT

In bed. About to go to sleep. Then I realised I didn’t post anything today. My aim was to write every single day, even if I write a whole load of bulls**t. So here I go, writing just for the sake of it. At the moment I’m feeling really content. I’m staying with my mom…

Feeling REFLECTIVE

Now that I’ve started, I just can’t stop. I’m addicted. Addicted to writing! Normally I talk. I talk A LOT. I talk to people, I talk to animals, I talk to insects (I gave this beetle type thing a piece of my mind the other day for trespassing on my property), I talk to objects…

Feeling CONFLICTED 

How many different ways can you say you’re uncertain about something? I’m gonna have to think about it (i.e. Google it) and edit the post. I ask because to simply say I’m ‘uncertain’ doesn’t even come close. I’m so beyond uncertain and so confused that the only way for my brain to cope is to…

Feeling DEFLATED

So, today has been a really unproductive day. Started off with the best intentions; got up early, ate a healthy breakfast of boiled eggs and an equally healthy lunch of fish and veg…then my mom bought sausage rolls. She bought them for my dad but I got in there first. There’s not even a flake…

Feeling INSPIRED

It‘s Tuesday 9th August, 12.06am (or at least it was when I started writing this). I’m so tired that my eyes are about to fall out of my face BUT I’m feeling SO inspired. I’ve felt this way for a while (at least 2 hours) but it took so long for this medieval machine to cooperate with me enough to…